More about Michael

(written by Michael himself)

Stunning Greenery In Midst Of Town

              ** Just Another Cancer Story & Interesting Life Coming To An End **

The following will answer some of the questions many people have and who knows, if I feel good enough, we keep this going as a personal blog for people and situations around me for a while :-) Let's see what comes out of it......Sure got plenty of material to write about, must have lived about 5 lives and yes, there have been better times.....Much better...….

My 4 1/2 years of struggle to fight cancer and trying to keep my head up and my reputation 
as Speedy-Gonzales going, still helping out just about anybody in need of anything, seems to be coming to an end, slowly but surely.

First time in my life, after a horrifying experience 12 days ago on a Sunday midnight, I am a bit
worried that my toughness and high pain threshold won't cut it in the future. I have recovered from 7 smaller and larger surgeries in record time, am still quite fit after all this and still try to be positive when the shi…hits the fan.
But that Sunday I was curled up on the floor of my bathroom, screaming in agony, while Meow and her kids prepared to bring me to the ER in their car, full speed, with blinkers on and horn blaring.
Lek must have enjoyed to be able to race the car for once and the police we overtook, obviouslynrealized there was no street-racer in action, but an emergency heading towards BKK hospital.

I have received lots of encouragement  and support by so many good people, but often I feel it is not the right thing to burden people with my illness and affect their positive lives in one way or another.

I am lucky to have always been interested in medical stuff, as a young student in Basel, I spent most of my free hours at the BS University library, reading up on medical & law studies and dissertations. Absolutely loved it and can still remember the very special atmosphere around thousands of books & binders. I can't remember very well, but was told, that I spent time helping out people in need in the BS Paraplegic Center at some time during my younger years.
I remember well again my limited army service, due to a bad back - I was far less fit back then, compared to now with 61 years.
My reasonable condition for my age, clearly helped getting over a partial lung-removal (2x),
a complete RA lymph node-removal, several smaller different surgeries and now major open gut-surgery to remove a large tumor form my small intestines. I was always back on my feet very fast and trying to go back to the normal life asap. 
This time, I was clearly told by the Dr.'s it will be different and it must be different.....But first back to my army services.
I had pushed to serve in a medical unit and was lucky enough to have Dr.'s and pharmacists teaching me lots and lots of interesting things, many of which would help me and others all my life.
I made a few  of "repeat-courses" with the army, again medically related in a very large mountain summer camp, sponsored and supported by the army for handicapped youth & kids. Absolutely great memories!!! Showed me early on, what it means to to be ill or just not like the lucky majority.
This was already a time when I ran a business for a friend and later for myself. As I offered to
be the Officer's-Boy, Toilet-Cleaner etc. etc. while others were off-duty and enjoying a beer, I was let go on Friday evening to Sunday morning to run my night-club for the busy weekend. A very nice commander an Colonel / Walliser Farmer supported me every time I was in his service. !

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Back in action, albeit reduced.....Recovery will take time....Not looking forward to getting up at 4 am tomorrow to  drive to BKK for check-up and start of new "Chemo"..... Rather be on the beach :-)

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Happy that all our DE projects are going well, soon low-season hits and much to do and prepare to upkeep the beautiful Oasis in the middle of sin-city...…

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Middle of April and more bad, but expected news. The evil monster in me is spreading fast and
has mutated into a more aggressive form, even. Very interesting medical stuff to follow, read-up and analyze. 
Already started a "double-chemo" (actually a targeted therapy) which will have some nasty
side-effects. The constant migraine-like headaches, lethargy and fatigue started already and you might see me balding soon, a common sight here in Pattaya :-)

Regular trips to BKK where my medical team is taking care of me are tough, but no way around it.

We are in the middle of Songkran, Pattaya is very! quiet. Right after Songkran we will start
with the "public-toilets" project in E-Building, finally. Thank you to the contributors, still a bit
short, so any owners want to step up, please see Meow :-) Thank you.

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People ask me, why I don't return to Switzerland ?   Well, I am not the guy who can just sit down, relax & watch TV or feel bad all day long, I tried it for a few hours and it drives me crazy. So I decided to keep going my usual ways, just like the last 5 years, some days will be harder than others and at some point nature will set self-limits...…
I feel comfortable here, have my good people around me, that step up, when needed and I would hate to interrupt the lives of anybody in organized Switzerland. On top of that, most of the year it is just tooooooooo cold for me and the cold might get me before the cancer does. However I keep my options open and my Dr.s there informed, as I have had several surgeries in Basel already. Never know what is next.....Taking it day by day....

HAPPY SONGKRAN...

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A few terrible days with side-effects hitting harder than ever, this time even knocked me out. Without nonstop care by Meow I would have ended in hospital again. Not nice to lay helpless in bed, especially not for me.....hate it.....no choice....try keep going or end it all....
Almost 24 hours without vomiting and uncontrollable shivering. Small victories....And reason to get ​a bit active....

So, this morning we started our "few-owner-sponsored" E-Building toilets & storage! Hurrah!
All steel in walls, columns totally corroded and just crumbled....never seen so bad...No wonder the counters collapsed and the columns started coming apart. Not just a 15 min. tiling job, as the few know-it-all experts kept proclaiming for the last years. Now it is done right!

This year there will be several private remodels in the tower, as usual we try to help the owners, who ​have no TH remodel experience. It should hopefully all be done before end of autumn....

Wanna have some good moments....Turn it up.....What a star (s)…….40  years +
Best way to motivate me to do some exercise and keep a bit of strength...…:-)

                                                       Eric Clapton   &   BBK

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Almost total knock-out by chemo-side effects...  Much worse than expected...
Meow always on call to bring me to ER if some major event like a stroke or such...
Dark days, with some good moments when the pounding headaches ease up for 
a couple hours and Andrea Bocelli fills the room. Hey, at least I finally have the time 
to enjoy my Klipsch System and listen to some of the most beautiful music on the planet. 

Thank you Dennis (T-410) Per (T-910) for your contributions to the Public Toilets. We just bought some quality ventilated UPVC doors (4 x) and work continues next Monday. We are still short some funds to bring this to an end, out of 200 owners so far 28 have pulled
out their wallets. Speaks for itself, a homogenous group of caring, good people...
There must be some more...….

Danke Peter fuer den feinen Luzerner Rahmkaese. Solche Spezialitaeten schmecken doppelt so gut, wenn man nie Weiss, wann man das zu letzten mal geniessen darf.

​You all have a great weekend & enjoy every day!

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Please no advise on how to cure cancer the natural or magic way, no discussions against big pharma, bad Dr's and hospitals..... No offense, but leave this to people who know what they are talking about..... This is very naïve talk...….

Here a simple oversight of scams and BS-cures. The misery of cancer patients has become a major business of fraud and deception.
                                                         https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_unproven_and_disproven_cancer_treatments   

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What a beautiful day in DE with trees having grown almost out of control with the last few rains, turning DE once again into a jungle. BTW, we use recycled water for our gardens, no waste of precious water....


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After 3 bad  first weeks with pretty bad side-effects, that kept me in bed for many hours, zombie- like- state, now into week 4 some of the worst reactions seem to subside a bit....
Trying to keep busy as long as possible during the day, but obviously the good, old days are over and adjusting to the new situation is not easy for me....
Trying to be active on other levels and make sense of the "new life".

We wish a great weekend to everybody and hope the sun is back out in good old Europe very soon!

BTW.....halfway trough with the new Public Toilets in E-Building, total remodel of T-208 into
another top-studio started already. This year many owners seem to be redoing their units. This is great for the value of the Estate and every unit done, is one less to come.....This year they all fall into the really low-season, so not a big issue.

>>> 25/5/19

5 days offline.....5 nights ago Meow had to drive me to BKK emergency room in the middle of the night after almost going into shock. About 10 preceding days had been pretty rough and I felt worse by the hour until my daily contribution became almost zero....Anyway, after a bunch of "drips & drops" of medication & liquid food I was allowed to go home, back on chemo after 3 days break and have been doing reasonably well these first 2 days picking up my pace and feeling almost normal. Lots of things to finish and start, 55555. New pool project imminent, still lots to prepare. 
Very happy with my Dr.s in BKK, good people -  also their support teams are nice and caring people and having been there so many times during the last 5 years makes it feel like a second home almost :-)

DE & Pattaya very quiet these days, Meow keeps busy and still our long-term Oasis regulars are around and pleasant to have a chat with. 
Thanks Kev & Steve for your friendship and always being nice, positive and respectful. Great American guys!!!
Thanks Peter for the lovely chocolates and Manfred for the homemade sausages. Delicious!

I am always happy to refer you to the correct and best Dr.'s, after so many years (20+) of helping out people with all kinds of problems and my own bs going into year 6, I have a very good line to some of the top-medical people in TH. Don't hesitate! And make sure you ALWAYS have health insurance. Good private care is very expensive and don't say, I am healthy, I don't need that......I was once, too.....Now the C has become part of life :-)

>>> 28/5/2019

Thank you Per, thank you John C. and many others for your concern & well-wishes. Amazing how many people incl. all Thai staff in the Estate are being so nice, supportive and friendly.
The next few months are gonna be quiet and the perfect moment for the pool project, which is much more involved than people realize. Home & Pool is a good company and they will do a good job. They did pool # 1 15 years ago and it is still nice and all good.
Our staff already starts preparations, so we have our hands full  :-)
Today a very "tired-day", the many meds take their toll.....

Meow is doing an unbelievable job taking care of me and her kids - well educated - support her fully.
So, here is me, who never wanted a family, but built up a deep friendship with Meow over many years, with a few hiccups, mostly caused by me and her strong personality. Here is me, who  saw and contributed (not financially) her kids grow to respectful and responsible young adults....Here is me being quite grateful, that Meow seems to be one of the few, that naturally and happily gives back when need is here. They drive me to the emergency room in the middle of the night. Keep my condo ready and perfect the way the Swiss guy likes, feed me and just take very well care of me.
Besides that - even in low-season, she still runs a demanding business.....Quite impressive for the country we live in  and a totally different culture!

I am a very private person, maybe a bit weird -as easy approachable by anyone day & night for any help & info, as difficult, when down and ill once in my condo, hospital-room etc. Please don't be offended. I want no visitors, also your good will is much appreciated. This goes all the way to my closest friends and family, even.
Just the way I am....

Cancer-cures.....Who would even start talking or giving advise on this????  There is 100's of cancer types & sub-mutations and various stages etc. etc. Don't fall for the bs. headlines online or in papers. Let's leave this to the Pros, people who study this for many years and keep up to date every single day.
There is some progress, the therapy I am going through right now is one of the newest "limited success stories" and all it does, if we get very lucky....keeps the tumors at bay for a few extra months.
Please, no phantasy advise.....I have heard & seen them all. This subject is too complex even for most medical experts to handle. How would we dare to put ourselves on the level of people who dedicate their lives to help cancer victims - almost 40% in a lifetime - …….


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DO NOT DELAY TREATMENT AND DECISIONS! EVERY DAY MIGHT COUNT! TAKE ACTION AND BE SELF-RESPONSIBLE! YOU ARE ENTITLED TO A 2ND. OPINION, IF YOU FEEL INSECURE! NO DR. WILL BE OFFENDED...…..

I have a very sad story to share about a good friend. It will come across in sections, as I find time and am in the mood, it has no happy ending........
Start with reading the above link and some of the links at the bottom.....

This story starts at the same time my cancer story started Oct. 2014. A good friend, British, smart guy & health freak to the extreme, top-fit, only organic foods etc. etc. . Married with a TH-girl and father of a lovely young boy...….
After my initial shock back then about a big tumor showing on my right lower lung/lobe seen on an X-Ray taken in BPH,  I immediately started research on best DR.s in BKK.  The day I had my first appointment in BKK I got an early morning call from David, a friend I had travelled with 25 years ago, spent some time on the islands and we always kept in touch and when I moved to Pattaya, he visited at least once a year....


>>>  Time to relax a bit....Early morning blood-tests.....Always a bit scary......

>>>  Liver values improving, so don't look like a zombie /leper anymore soon! Extremely tired and dizzy, but happy to keep an eye and keep going many jobs in the Estate. Not my style sitting around at all.

>>> 1/6/2019

Bad night, but anyway......

Finally made it for a dentist check-up. Chemo etc. affects saliva, mucus and all very badly. Surprise...
"Your teeth are in good shape and if they were mine, I would not do anything!"  Little things that make my day.

Andy / D-21 arrived and we had a nice chat, so may warm & caring people! Life and views really change when you fight some serious illness, now into year 5.  Never knew so many of our guests and friends really worry about others!!!  Super....Thank you....

Pattaya extremely quiet, the bad exchange rates hurt many travelers, too! Paired with so many other issues in TH, like environment, political uncertainties, cost in general. Oasis still and always great value!
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>>> 8/6/2018

Back from BKK, usual cancer checks & Dr. appointments. Friday and place was packed.
So much misery....
Stayed at a large new hotel next to hospital for the night. All night long banging doors and screaming Chinese.....Horrible....Breakfast buffet a chaos, especially for the poor staff that get treated so rudely by this type of customers. At check-in we watched one of such a group reaching behind the check-in counter and grabbing a stapler w/o asking or apologizing after being caught by the receptionist, that kept her cool. Times are changing.....

"How are you today?"  The most often heard question in my life by now.....and in the last 24 months, for sure..... You really wanna know....."Some days better, some days worse, some days really, really shitty", but then you probably won't meet me out. Who is Stage IV. of any cancer hardly ever feels good anymore....Life is turned upside down and getting chaotic as everything revolves around the C.
Thank you for the many invitations, very kind. But I am on a time & medication regime, that eliminates most regular hours to eat & appetite and portions are very limited, too. Meow does a great job getting a min. of food into me every day, so I can keep weight, which is very difficult. BTW, she cooks really, really good....But this I knew all along, as she has done all the stations in Oasis early on, it is part of running a hotel, the better you know every department...….

I am now pushing her very hard - yes the pushing will not stop until I am gone - to get her daughter into the business. She is working in a big hotel and it is time for her to move ahead and learn  a broader spectrum of hotel- & restaurant business. 
Once her E improves a bit and she is less shy, she will be a great support for Meow. And she will go through all parts, Meow had to learn from the beginning. Hope our staff takes some clues from her. Can't change TH, this is the way things go.....everywhere, just open your eyes, long-timers will know and don't get exited, but know how to resolve problems....:-)

Tourism here has changed massively the last few years. We are very lucky to have a large regular crowd for many years. Most of them are our friends and we all are happy to see them every year, the more the better....But many businesses are suffering, unless they go for group tourism, which we certainly won't!

>>>  20/6/2019

Hi Dutch-Willy....Nice to hear from you...Stay big & strong...much better than old & weak :-)
Just back from BKK, my usual fun-visit. Nice & active young Dr., really interested in my situation and doing her best to keep me alive as long as possible. A straight talker.....I like that....
So, now it is more eating, more training....a bit more of everything....
Have lost 80% of my superman's powers the last 6 months....Debilitating and frustrating...
But i.e. my last few days just did not allow much food at all to stay down. I am working off
just about every single one of roughly 200 side-effects. Once around, we start from the beginning again....:-)
We have now a new strategy to hopefully control the worst events within 48 hours, lets try...
So, renewed hope, that I can perform a bit better....Hate to be on the side-lines....

Pool started, Can't wait to see first results.....DE & Oasis the #1 place to live & stay in Central
Pattaya. My best move ever, coming back here last year to a smaller, but lovely place, overlooking pool & trees.

Just back from BKK and doing the rounds.....Staying away from the ever negative few long-term seniors here. Most of the residents are great guys, so we make the sun shine every day!

Thanks to all the good wishes and support.....

>>> 22/6/2019

Looks like -even before stopping the cortisone - a new load of side-effects. Bloody new
rash that is keeping me on my toes, itching like hell 24 hours. Cold showers help a little,
but at night I would like to sleep and not shower every 60 minutes :-(

Always loved music, few know.....won't start singing, no worries.....5555555
As long as it has melody & rhythm I love the entire bandwidth.....

Here the proof that also good things come out of IRAN, maybe time to read up a bit
on that once great country, would they just come to their senses. A smart & creative 
people. Hope there will be an end one day to fanatics and violence!!!


Turn it up...………..Mohsen Yeganeh - Behet Ghol Midam ( I promise you )

I have been asked for some pictures a few few times.....I am the last one to step in front of 
camera and certainly even less with my good looks totally gone now...…5555555555555...….
But let me think about it.....

You all have a great weekend & think about that one person, that you might make happy
this Sunday with a phone call, a slice of cake or a surprise visit.

>>> 23/6.2019

Day # 3 with good appetite. Meow's salad tastes great. Chemo affects your taste and mouth in a 
terrible way. Early on I was able to ward off fungal infections (thrush) and mouth-sores with my
own mixture of strong Salt-Water/Kamillosan/Peroxide & a dash of Betadine. Gargle and rinse every 2 hours!
So, these days I need to eat, whenever my body allows and just get these calories & protein in. Must have lost 80% of my muscle mass & strength. Not nice, being used to be ready for any eventuality all my adult life. Now need to step back often....But on the way gaining some of it back....

Rain stopped pool work today, so another half-day of tile drilling tomorrow. But was well enough to 
do my rounds and get many small things done, that nobody else picks up. Thanks John OL. for the positive comments. U always been one without many words, but clearly seeing the big picture here.
Have a nice evening.

Glad, these days the very few left, who see just about everything negative and miserable in their lives, leave me alone. Unfortunately in a large community as ours's there are always the very few, probably also to do with aging and location, that attracts some very "special" ones.  Why not vote with your feet?
Overall we seem to have a huge majority who appreciates what we got here in DE. Can't think of anything that compares.

Heard, quite a few C-sufferers are following this very simple blog, I don't want go into medical stuff
too much, this gets really, really complicated very fast and studies are a very dry subject and need some basic understanding of medical term etc.

The best source for patients are often specific forums and experiences by fellow sufferers. You will not find any more respectful & heartfelt forums, than cancer-forums. A community which you can only really join & understand, if you or a loved-one is a victim.

Wow, TH is stepping up. Laws prohibiting smoking in your own family home!!   Must love that one.
Let's see what the details will be. STOP SMOKING WHILE YOU CAN !!!!!  

C changes your life in many ways, small & big. Almost by the hour. I never thought I would need another pair of work boots/sneakers...….BUT YES, I outlived another pair and am now stuck finding
a pair size 13 W at Payless Shoe-Source. The only place, that occasionally carries these.

And another WOW!  My next birthday, which was never of importance is a cool 10 days away.....Another event I did not really expect to be around for. 

Wanna read a basic list of side-effects of my treatment? Enjoy. I am going randomly through many of them it seems, never a boring day...….  HERE

Here comes my evening dose and then as I mentioned, time to try to find some boots, can't eat anyway for a couple hours......By 20.00 I will be starving.....

>>> 2/72019

Incredible...Been 3 weeks..... Got some tasty bread from Tom, Gordon & Graham today.... 3 great guys, happy everyday I see you in the morning. Thank for your support & the great birthday bread!  Perfect moment.
Today pouring the main structure of the pool. All moving well, with some minor hick-ups.
Tomorrow 4 am off to BKK for treatment. Hope I can get up, so tired the last few days.....

I start realizing that I am hardly leaving the Estate anymore. Must try to go for more walks with
Meow.

>>> 6/7/2019

Overall decent week with the regular BKK trip for medical checks and more meds. Still plugged ears
most of the time, sorry folks.....Out of my control....Side-effect with the Eustachian Tubes blocked/inflamed.
Rash and bloody itch is driving me nuts....and yes I have showered....55555, several times a day, the only way I don't scratch myself to death. At least learning self-control so late in life.....:-)
Pool project makes good progress, good people, hard workers. Plenty of problems, expected. Repairing and redoing a 3o year old construction is more involved than starting new.....
Let's see what Sunday brings, but tonight is "BAD BLOOD" and Netflix planned.....Meow loves it, so do I.
I can only repeat how well she is adapting to the new situation of having an old sick man in the house....
I hate to be a burden to anybody, but just like her work, she does what she does for me w/o any fuss, which does not mean, I don't see every little detail....
I am trying to get some of my strength back, but many days I am just too down/fatigued. Can't explain, one must experience.
Now I wish everybody a great weekend and fun in the sun!!

>>>  13/7/2019

Quite happy how things are going in Estate. Pool Team doing very good work and the supervisor is very friendly and easy to work with. First to be on the job 8 am and last to leave. Always ready to discuss issues. David, with his 30 year major construction experience and the HP supervisor found solution for the issues that come  up on a remodel project. Don't forget, this pool was built ca. 30 years ago on swampy land and very basic experience back then. The roots of trees, sinkholes, washouts etc. have done their part to make it a bit difficult in some areas.
Health-wise same...same....Good days and bad days, but no extra-emergency hospital days for 5 weeks now. Just hope the side-effects subside a bit more.....
Keeping busy and preparing.....not much more to report at this time :-)  

>>> 28/7/2019

A rare moment. Meow & Co. at Pizza Dinner! For days zero appetite, but really enjoyed that dinner....
Days are totally unpredictable....Hard to function and often have to "disappear" for a few hours.
At least it is nice to see that all low-season projects are moving ahead nicely!

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>>>  7/8/2019  Long-time no hear :-) 
        Days were pretty rough. A suspicion I had for weeks now confirmed by Dr.'s....
       An incision abdominal wall hernia. I felt for weeks, I have never had a pot-or beer-belly....
       We all agreed to wait a few weeks to next CT-Scan, that will show new tumors and then we
       only have to open me up once and not twice in a  row. Probably caused that rupture of the
       abdominal wall/surgery scar myself, by lifting too heavy, being too active.....So strictly
       no lifting for a long-time..... This surgery will be # 8 and I can feel how I loose a bit of my
       my life after every surgery. No more 60 pound dumbbells, probably none ever again...
       hate to be "limited" in what I can do. Hate to put even more on Meow. But she handles it great.
      Training her daughter Thanya now to take over some tasks and be ready when I am totally "out of order".
       Feeling ill and very! fatigued most of the day and at least in "my book" can hardly call this
       life anymore.
       I am used to be hands on 18 hours a day.... Lets see what the new surgery will show and how it
       turns out. We might fit an industrial zipper to get more easy access....5555555
       Not much left they can take out, unless they gonna turn me into Android at some point.

       Low-season is much quieter than years ago. The strong Baht certainly kills Western tourism 
       slowly.
       Sorry, this website was offline for a couple of days, but the provider fixed it fast. Was out of
       our control.

       Very happy with pool-progress, a seriously complicated job, well managed by the on job
       supervisor and daily meetings have resulted in some good brainstorming, fixing some issues
       and improvements. 

        For the moment I say good-night. Time for a shower and to lay down. The only moments I feel 
        reasonably ok. 

        My regards and best wishes to everybody & Thank you for the many mails & messages, sorry
        if I can't answer all. My brain is affected by chemo & an extra fridge full of pills.

>>>  10/8/2019
        Pretty lousy days, feeling nauseated all day long, really bad.... And  fatigue that makes every step a PITA.
        I try to get some things done, to keep moving, otherwise it equals with giving up and wasting
        away. Soon next surgery. Nothing to look forward to, also 4th. & 5th. floor in Bangkok General
        Surgery Dept. even try to give me the same room every time now :-)
        Pretty happy with DE latest project, pool # 2. On time, very good work by HOME & POOL,
        good support by a great  majority of owners. We got a keep DE nice, don't go down the same 
        road as many other older buildings. Old building in TH is NOT = Old building Western Standards.
        I have seen 5-10  year old buildings that DE beats in every respect.
        Back to pool, we expect to be done begin of September, despite many surprises and some 
        "rainy-delays" at begin.
        Just took my "Chemo", in fact it is called Targeted Therapy and now have to wait at least 1.5
        hours, before I can eat something. Life is now "controlled" by illness and fighting to make it a few
        few more months. Who would have thought 5 years ago, when this all started, I would still
        be around for my 61-birthday.
        The only advise I can give. Be active, don't delay treatment, don't miss check-ups, be well 
        insured, keep informed and ask your Dr.s if you are not sure about something.

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Pattaya seems to attract this species....555555555

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>>>  10/9/2019 I did not update for a few weeks.....This is why.....​

 
>>>  The old vertical abdominal surgery scar hardly healed and here we go again. This picture taken
        with about 1/3  of staples out on day 8, when I was allowed to go home.
        This time the first 3 days were hell with pains to my quite high limit or above.
        As the Dr.s know me well after 5 years they want that pains remind me to be "inactive" and careful, the nurses were not too pleased when I started making my bed on day 3, which I abandoned after a few screams of pain, I must mention, too.
       Major abdominal  surgery is one of the very bad ones. This time the Dr.s had to remove some more large lesions and  start re- constructing and re-enforcing my abdominal wall with "plastic"-mesh.
        The verdict......Stop running around, stop lifting anything!!!!! Let is heal and change your life-
        style. Easier said than done. 
        I was never one to sit down and enjoy, I enjoy getting things done. So I don't know yet how this 
       all is gonna play out. 
       Meow and her kids taking excellent care of me, could not wish for more. In fact I have to so slow her down a bit and save the 100% support for the bad days, that will be coming for sure, when the
       cancer keeps eating away.
       O yes, Meow and I had our ups & downs during the years, this is just normal with 2 people under
      nonstop stress, 24/7/day & night and all kinds of problems. I am a PITA and often pushed Meow to limit, our common dinners can be counted on 1 hand. I am not an easy guy to be with, trust me.
      But I do have some good sides, too, which I wont list here, just ask Meow, 55555.....
      Anyway, most of our long-term guests & friends know us quite well and don't need details 
     published.......55555
     One of my outside friends, just one however likes to rub the "rougher days" in at any opportunity.
     A lack of tact or just his way of re-confirming for himself his perfect, honest, direct liberal attitude
     and character..... Nothing surprises in today's world. 
     For me, Meow, my friends facts and action are what counts....
     On day 5 we re-started the daily "chemo" and it starts showing with constant nausea and more again, unfortunately.
     Not sure what happened to my belly-button, was quite happy with my old one, but seems the
     original got lost in surgery and a substitute was "installed", 5555.....  
     Must be one of the "scariest" guys in town......as in "SCAR"..... Maybe get some background story
     for my marine-days in Afghanistan.....Would fit the Pattaya bar crowd.....

>>>  18/9/2019
       The short interruption during surgery-days with the chemo must have re-started the vicious
       cycle of side-effects. I won't go into this in detail. But last 2 days were VERY! unpleasant and
       Meow been my angel-nurse once more, not getting any sleep. I would be pretty fu....without 
       her. Thank God it is low season and she has a bit more time.....Not to forget she also had to
       take over finishing the T-208, our newest Super-Premium. Pictures coming soon. Trying to get up today, but very weak and very nauseous. 
       Hope none of the few Estate moaners & whiners gonna run up with their accumulated bs. complaints and  requests, the moment the see me up. Some of these people have ZERO consideration for others.
       Fits the city we live in. Thank God there is also many good ones....:-)
       "A few bad apples spoil the barrel......"

​>>>   26/9/2019
        Roughly 3 weeks since last surgery....his time I have to be extremely careful... Chemo starts taking it's toll, at least is not as bad as at the very beginning. Abdominal pains originate either from
        the last surgery or could be sign of a more serious side-effect. Few days to next blood-checks etc. in BKK, but with cancer of that stage it is very difficult to determine day to day details and 
        reading my last surgery report and medical certificate, the word PALLIATIVE, speaks the tough
        and honest truth. We are on final approach....

        "Physicians sometimes use the term palliative care in a sense meaning palliative therapies without curative intent, when no cure can be expected (as often happens in late-stage cancers). For example, tumor debulking can continue to reduce pain from mass effect even when it is no longer curative. A clearer usage is palliative, non-curative therapy when that is what is meant, because palliative care can be used along with curative or aggressive therapies."

          I consider myself a well informed patient. I have been interested in medical stuff since my early
          youth and while I never learned to play football, I learned the basics and many detailed studies
          that were of interest back then in the University library in Basel. Some great memories, in the 
          middle of thousands and thousands of books & files & much older students.....

          I am being asked......No, I am not scared of death, yet. I have been confronted with death many times in life, with my own so to say, for the last 5 years....I think my friends here & Meow & the
          kids will be making me strong until the last hour.....

          I have a friend, he don't want be identified, who has wished me a good night / good morning
          every single day since October 10th. 2014, when it all started!

          I have friends, nearby and far away, who think of me every day and I know if I ever need them,
          they will be here in no time.

          The hardest thing is, that my 18 hour days are history and will never come back. I am doing and starting some other stuff, I can't watch YouTube all day, 555555

          Who knows, maybe I get to write a book from my notes about 20 years in Diana-Estate.
          Very few have seen or experienced the long history of DE, one of the first big Condos in town...

           But this will start once I can't get out of the room anymore ....
           
           You all have a great Sunday! Make somebody happy.....